I have a job coming up that I will be shooting for next month. It is very frustrating to not be in shape at this point in time. I have been frustrated many times, but I think a lot of it was my fault. Everything is going up at once, so there are so many invitations and it's hard to find a balance ð« Anyway, I'm off to the gym now ð€
Yesterday was my first practice game in a while ð The shoes seemed to be getting old and I felt like they were slipping and dangerous even after wiping the soles ð«£ Why are five finger socks so uncool ð
I'm thinking of getting a new tattoo, but Japan is in the humid season right now. I don't think this time of year is suitable for me as I tend to sweat easily âïž
The last day of GW will likely end with a half day of practice as usual ð.
I hadn't moved properly for about 10 days, so I had a pishy back pain while I was hitting the attack... ð€. I'm glad I didn't get an upset back. We are going to have bad weather for a while starting today, and at times like this, old injuries and such hurt. I have to remind myself not to push myself when I know I'm injury prone... or I'll be reckless ð.
Hello! Yesterday, I was taken out by my sister, who is as old as my parents but good friends, very energetic and a pioneer of Japanese art makeup.
She knows me well and leaned on me to say some harsh things and share my experiences. I had acted out of momentum, and afterwards I suddenly felt restless and drank alcohol myself for a long time. I drink so much that I lose my memory when I'm with someone I'm comfortable with, but I walk around and talk normally, which is not good for me ð¶ð«ïž. I went to another restaurant where I knew someone for just drinks because I was too active, but I'm glad I was able to walk home yesterday because there were people there. When I got home, I couldn't sleep well and already had pain behind my eyes. I woke up several times, felt a headache, myself to sleep, and woke up dehydrated in the morning. What a terrible way to wake up. Where was my spirit last night ð¶ð«ïž?
I learned something when I couldn't eat at all. Since I can't eat, I drink hot water and tea to try to eat something good for my body, but it seems that this is not enough to nourish my body and my skin becomes very itchy.
I have never had such an experience before, so I am not comfortable scratching my own skin even though I have not been bitten by a mosquito, and it is really a disgusting act because I feel like a person who is missing something ð¶ð«ïž.
Even in Japanese anime, a character scratching his skin is not a good image: filthy, sensitive, naive, introverted...etc. I think I'll try to study nutrition somehow.
And I started growing cherry tomatoes on my balcony. People in the world seem to have pets to fill their sense of loss, but for me it seemed to be cherry tomatoes ð.
Hello. I was able to finish the weekend with a few friends who talked about how depressed I was and took me out walking telling me to eat and that I need to get out.
I wasn't sure if I should write about the not-so-sparkling part here, but everyone says that Instagram is a tool to show only the good parts and Twitter is a place to mumble and let your heart out, but I don't want to talk to people about my negative feelings, so I thought it would be better to write about the not-so-sparkling part here. I thought it would be better to write here.
I think it will be very difficult to get back to the energy I had just a week ago unless I have a chance to do something about it.
But I have grown unlike before.
That is, if I continue to be in a situation like this, where I'm now rotting and can't get out of bed, and I'm crying just remembering it, even walking outside. I'm throwing away all my previous efforts, and I'll be disrespecting my friends, strangers, and family who are now encouraging and supporting me.
I was convinced that I was the only one who had done something not good. When I let it out to my friends as it was and told them I regretted it, it wasn't just you. He said that the person I was dealing with in a difficult situation took advantage of me, didn't listen to me to the end, and ran away. He told me that he thinks I am suffering because the intentions I wanted to convey were left unspoken.
I am suffering now, but I don't think this is the end yet. I hope I can be honest then.
倧åãªäººã®å€§å€ãªæã«ãåªããéžæãå¯ãæ·»ãäºãã§ããªããŠåŸæããçµéšã¯ãããŸããïŒ ç§ã¯ä»ãšãŠãåŸæããŠããŸãã äœæ¥ãæçš¿ãæ¢ãŸã£ãŠããŠãã¿ãŸããã ã» Have you ever regretted not being able to make a gentle choice or be there for your loved one during a difficult time? I regret it very much right now. Sorry I have stopped posting for a few days.
ãã®ãããã®æ¿é§ãäœéšãããããäœãã§ããå°åã§ã¯äžã ãç®ã«ããããªãã ãããªð ã» Humid weather todayâïž. Unusually, there was a warning of dense fog in the morning and I thought I could experience it, but it was just cloudy ð. About 10 years ago we once got together with other teams to do a joint summer camp ð.
I had some business to attend to, so I got a ride home in the car of someone who was leaving on the second night, and we arrived home late at night, and that's when I experienced thick fog for the first time ð«. I was surprised that I couldn't see a meter ahead even with the car's high beams on. I was a little scared and excited on the mountain road but I couldn't sleep and fell asleep and when I woke up, my friend who was scared was holding my hand while driving slowly ð. If I had been the driver, I would have been scared of what would happen if we had an accident ð I'm sorry for my friend at that time ð
I'd love to experience fog as thick as that, but I guess it's rare to see it in the area where I live ð
ããŠãéšã§ãšãŠã涌ããæ¥ã§ãâïž ããããæ¥ã倧奜ãã ãã®æ®åœ±ã®æ¥ã¯ãã£ãšããšæããåçããäŒããæ§ã«ã ãã ãæ±ã°ãã§ããŸããã ã» Well, it's a rainy and very cool day âïž. I love days like this. The day of this shoot was hot and still, and as you can tell from the photos, I was getting sweaty.
æè¿ãã£ãšããã«ã¬ãŒå±ããã®ãã³ã«ããã£ãŠããŠãé±äžã§ãè ¹ãã¯ã¡åãããã«ãªããŸã§é£ã¹ã«è¡ã£ãŠããðð®ð³ð€€ ã» I've been addicted to naan from a certain curry shop for a long time now and I go there once a week until my stomach is about to burst ðð®ð³ð€€
Makeup quickly melts and flakes off, and straightened hair quickly becomes shaggy ð€¯. A gush of sweat soaks your dress and you're stunned at what time you spent getting ready ð€Šââïž
I have been worrying about buying a washing machine with a dryer this year for the past 5 years....
