ใใใฆ5ใ6ๅนดใถใใใใใซๅผใฃ่ถใใๅ ใฎ็ๅคใใไผใใซใใฆใใใๆนใใใฆใใใ้ฉใใใ ใจใใงใใชใๅฟใใไธญไปไบใๆใใฆใใฆใใใใฟใใใ ใ ใใใใใใ ใป I was out of state for work, but thankfully I was able to keep busy.
And I was also surprised to see someone who came to see me from out of state, where I had moved to for the first time in about 5 or 6 years. It seems he took time out of his extremely busy schedule to come to see me. Thank you very much.
20ไปฃ่ฟใฎๅจใใ่ฆใใชใใใใฃใฑใใใฃใฑใใชๆไปฃใฏ็ตใใฃใใจๆใฃใฆใใใฎใใช๐ ใป I have a body painting shoot scheduled for October ๐งโโ๏ธ
I'm looking forward to seeing what kind of work will be done, but also a little anxious ๐ซค
I finally admitted to myself that it's because I'm not very confident. Now that I can accept it positively as a good change, maybe it's much better than I thought ๐ค
I guess I can consider the days of not being able to see what's going on around me and being full of it until my 20s are over ๐
ใใคใใธใ ใงใใใใๆฑใใใใๅพใฎ่ใฏๆใชใฉใฎ็ทใใใใใใคใใฆใใฆ่ฆใใฎใ้ข็ฝใใ ใป As I wrote last time, the split training at the gym seems to be right for now.
I have ballet practices and games, so I felt I needed to think about when to work harder at the gym.
The day before a long practice, I need to avoid muscle soreness and fatigue that will affect my practice or I will not be in good shape๐ โโ๏ธ I finally learned that the day after a long ballet session, I should take care of fatigue, muscle aches, and muscle tension.
Yesterday's practice, although less hot, was rainy and humid, and that made me tired . When I woke up this morning, I was partially tense and my muscles were sore from yesterday's arm training at the gym. I think I'll make it a day of stretching and light cardio.
This choice is a big step forward because I've never done this before. I thought I could just do it like a student ๐
It's always interesting to see my skin after sweating a lot at the gym, lots of lines from clothes etc.
ใใ้้ใฎ่ธใๅผตใใๅนใใชใใฎใงใฏใฌใขใใณใEAAใๅใๅ ฅใใใใจๆใฃใใใใชใใงใใใชใซ้ซใใฎใ ๐ซฅ ใป I was at a one man gym last week and decided to make up a menu. I'm going to try it for the first time.
I started with a menu that people made and thought if I could do it four days a week, I'd be good ๐๏ธโโ๏ธ
This time I decided to focus less on cardio than last time. My walking friends are busy and I'll have less opportunity to walk, and doing a lot of cardio makes me want to eat sweets ๐
I'm trying for the first time to bulk up a bit, as my volleyball is also down due to the Obon season coinciding with it and not enough people coming to practice.
I know a bench press champ who He said he made his muscles stronger by eating a ton of food, bench pressing, and sleeping repeatedly. I heard that he did this to avoid the muscles from not getting nutrients and shrinking by doing aerobic exercises.
I'm sure he spends far more time bench pressing than I would like, so I can't refer to him as he is, but I experienced last time that muscles can't grow without nutrition.
I was going to incorporate creatine and EAA because I can't step on weight like this, but why are they so expensive ๐ซฅ
ใใพใใฎๆใใซใตใใจๅธฐใฃใฆใใใฎใงใๆใใ่ฝใก็ใใใใใคใฏใง่กใใใจๆใใ ใป Yesterday I went to visit my father's grave because it was Obon, but there were so many more graves than a year ago when I was last there that I had to zigzag back and forth at least eight times through the rows of graves to find his grave ๐.
I can't believe there are so many more graves all of a sudden. Either a lot of people have died in the past year or the cemetery was having a sale.
It was too hot to come back quickly, so I think I'll go back on the bike when the heat settles down.
ใชใบใ ใฎ่ฃๆๅญใๆใฃใฆใใใใใชใฎใงใๆๅญใซใใใณใจใฏใพใฃใฆๅใฃใใๅใใใจใซใชใใใ ใใใชใจ่ใใใจใๅฐใๆใใใใ๐ ใป Something unexpectedly happened yesterday that made me very happy.
However, I regret that I was not prepared to deal with the situation in such a way ๐ซ
If I had always been in good shape, this would not have happened... I thought like a ใใฃใคใซใ๐
Okay, I was all set to do the whole thing today, and then my parents called and had an errand to run.
I really wanted to get in shape, but I got a lot of invitations to go out to eat. When my body is in bad shape, I get invited to games and photo shoots. When my body is at its best, I can relax at work.
It's like I'm hitting the backbeat of the rhythm, which is a little scary when I think about how great it would be if I could just snap to the beat and get it right ๐
ใคใใซใๅคงใใๅฐ้ขจใฏใใชใใฃใ๐ ใใใใใไฝใ ใ่ชฟๅญใ่ฏใใชใใฆใใฃใจๅฏใฆใใใฟใใใชใฎใ ใใฉ ๆๅพใซ่ฆใใฆใใๆ้ใใ24ๆ้ๅฏใฆใใใฟใใใ ใชใใ ใใใใใ ใใใชใซ้ฃ็ถใใฆๅฏใใใใชใใฆไฝๅใใใใฎใใชใ ใป Finally, there was no big typhoon ๐ More importantly, I wasn't feeling well somehow, and it seemed like I was sleeping all the time. I think I slept for 24 hours since the last time I remember. What is this? I wonder if I have the stamina to be able to sleep for such a long time in a row.
ๆใๆใใใใใใในใใญใชใใๆฐใใใโฆใ ใป Typhoon forecast for today ๐ช
I'm excitedly waiting for it, but there were gusts of thunderstorms for 10 minutes in the morning and it's stopped ever since ๐ฎ๐จ
My personal trainer was very considerate and informed me that the typhoon was going to hit at that time, so I could cancel the class. And he called me. I cancelled at one point, but it had stopped for a long time, so I called her and said I would still go.
My heart is not clear because nothing bad has happened lately and now I can't see the flower of my life ๐
I was tempted to swing my meat pounding cum security hammer, but I decided not to because I'm 80 years old and would be appalled if I saw it ๐ฎ๐จ
I'm busy with work and things to do, but it seems I still have too much energy and frustration.
If we get a typhoon later, I'm going to go outside and lie down in the park.
I think I'll feel better if I have a scary thought...
ใใใใงๆฏๆฅๅๅผทใใฆใใๅญฆ็ใฏ็ฒพ็ฅใๅผทใใชใใใใ ใชใจๆใฃใ๐ ใป Yesterday's half-day practice had a small number of people, so they said it might end early, so I headed in with a loose mind and found that no one had set up a net ๐ฒ
I wondered what was going on, and he suggested that if we weren't going to practice with a small number of people for a long time, why not play a practice match with a friend's team that practices nearby!
Yay! I got a chance to concentrate more (((o(*โฝโฝ*)o))) We moved the gym and went to a school surrounded by trees, even though it was only about 20 minutes away. The bugs were amazing๐คฏ
Even though we were moving, mosquitoes were biting us, two cicadas were crying and flying around throughout the game and bumping into people, and then the canabuns joined in the fray ๐ท
I thought the students who study there everyday would be mentally strong ๐
ๅๆๆฅใงใธใ ใฏๆญปใฌใปใฉๆททใใงใใใ ใใใใฉใใจใใใใไฝใใใใใงใใชใใใฉ่กใใใใช๐ค ใใใใ่ชๅใ่คใใใ๐ ใป I spent most of the last two days sleeping.
I wonder if I had enough energy to sleep like this. I was feeling very, very sore muscles, sleepy and tired. After the summer Saturday ๐ฅฑ
I've been lying awake for the past two days thinking I need to go to the gym, I need to go ๐คฏ and I don't feel good ๐คฏ
I didn't do what I wanted to do, so I chose to take steps to lower my self-esteem ๐ซฅ But I patted myself on the back for realizing at this point that it was a very big growth.
I have so many things I want to do, and I feel so caught up and impatient with the things I have to do. Maybe it's not a physical condition issue, maybe it's my impatience with myself that is creating this cycle of not so good laundry ๐ค
I know it's Saturday and the gym will be crowded to death, but I'm not going to do anything anyway ๐ค Then I'll pat myself on the back ๐
ใฟใใชใฏใฉใใใฆใใใฎใใช๐ค ใป I woke up early in the morning to get to the gym before my afternoon practice, but an hour later I still don't feel like I can move ๐
...and I thought as I wrote that, yes, I went for a personal yesterday! So my body is tired and my lower back and forearms feel strange ๐ก
I don't want to do a grueling workout in the morning and injure myself, so I want to keep the morning gym light and do something like a grueling workout in the afternoon, but I don't know what kind of menu to use๐ค
่ปฝใ้ ญ็ใ็ซ็ งใใใ่ นไธใใจใพใ ็็ถใใใใฎใงใใฃใใใใใใใชใ ใป I had a mild heat stroke at practice yesterday ๐ต๐ซ
I guess it's because I was on a business trip and didn't sleep, wake up or eat at the proper time.
I had to take a bite out of a salt tablet to do it, but I couldn't stop sweating like a waterfall and I was burning up all the time ๐ฅต I wonder how many I ate was the right amount ๐ I had dizziness, nausea, headache, fatigue, etc., but I drank salt water when I went to bed so I was a little calmer this morning.
I still have symptoms of a light headache, burning, and a stomach upset, so I think I'll take it easy.
ใกใใฃใจๅณใ้ใใ ใใงใใใฃใใไธๅใซใชใ๐ ๅซใใงใฏใชใใใฉใ่ฆใใไบบใฏ้ธใณใใโฆ๐ ใป Just a little different taste makes it very vulgar ๐ I don't dislike it, but I want to choose who I show it to... ๐
็ใใใใคใใใใใจใ๐ ใป I see people on Instagram posting silly comments like "I want to see uncensored images" or "I'll sign up for OF if it has uncensored images on it" ๐ฉ.
Beggars trying to get information for free are a no-no from here.
I think that creche act is not respectful to the people who follow and support and watch us like this first ๐.
I am not a person who wants to post pornographic images, I am just mindful that some images happen to look like that to people. So I hide them when I feel like it, and I post them when I don't feel like it.
ใใใใใฎใพใพ้ใใใใInstagramในใใผใชใผใซๆธใใฆใฟใใใ๐ค ็งใฎใใฉใญใฏใผใใ้ใฏใๅคๅ็งใๆใใๆนใๅใถ๐ ใป I'm on Instagram, and I said, "I take pictures as a hobby. I don't pay modeling fees, but please let me shoot. I will share the images I take. I will use them for social networking. If you make a digital photo book and make some sales, I can give you some money." And then I get a DM.
That means I don't pay you for your work ๐ ๐. They use other people's images to attract customers and satisfy themselves ๐. They even order me to do it in my underwear ๐.
They are just trying to satisfy their own greed and I don't find them attractive in any way ๐.
Shall I send this as is or write about it on my Instagram story ๐ค. My followers would probably be happier if I exposed them ๐.
ๅใใฆใใฃใใใใใฌใผใซใฏๆฅฝใใใฃใใ ใใณใใ1็ชใฎใใใใ็จผใใ ใใๅฎขใใ้ใฎใใใใงใใ๐ ใใใใใใ ใป Yesterday, I was invited to be an event girl for the Hell's Angels Japan chapter, a group of bad bikers famous for their bad behavior.
I was told that I could wear whatever I wanted as long as it looked like a bathing suit, so I went dressed as I wanted.
My first time as a tip girl was fun. I earned the most tips by far, thanks to my clients ๐ Thank you.
็ฆใใช็ฆใใชโฆใ ใป Yesterday I went to ballet practice for the first time in a week, but my knee hurt from the beginning and I gave up on moving properly ๐ฎโ๐จ
Spike and receive both movement and pain๐ โโ๏ธ Setter position and serve ๐โโ๏ธ
I'm relieved that all the personal and gym work I did on my upper body while my knee was hurting is paying off ๐ฉ But it's the lower body that matters...
ๅคใฎใคใใณใใซ่กใใฎใฏไน ใ ใ ใช๐ ใใใๅถใจ่ใใฆใใใใฉใใฉใใชใใใช๏ผ ใขใใผใซใใใฎใฏๅพๆใ ใใฉใใฌใใฌใใใใฎใฏ่ฆๆใชใใ ใช๐ ใป I have a job to do an event girl in Tokyo on the weekend.
It's been a while since I've been to an evening event ๐ I hear it's tip-based, but we'll see how it goes! I guess I'm good at appealing to people, but not so good at gawking ๐
ใใฆใๆฎๅฝฑใฎไบๅฎใๅ ฅใฃใฆใใใฎใง่ชฟๆดใใใโฆใจๆใๆฐๆใกใจใธใ ใซใ่กใใไผใใฆใ่ฏใใชใใชใ่ใซไธๅฎใจไธๆบใๆฑใใฆใใ๐ตโ๐ซ๐ต๐ซ ๐ถโ๐ซ๏ธ๐ซฅ๐ซ๐ถโ๐ซ๏ธ๐คฏ๐ญ ๆฌๅฝใซ่ชๅใฎไฝใซ่ นใ็ซใคใ ็ใใชใใจๆใ่พผใใ ใจใใใง่ฏใใชใใใใงใใชใใใไผใใงใๅคๅใใชใ็ใใฆๅฏๅๅใใชใใ ใใใชใซ่ชๅใฎไฝใซ่ นใ็ซใฃใฆใใใฎใฏๅใใฆใใใ ๆญฃ็ดใไฝฟใใชใใใใซๅฝใใๅใซใใใชใใฆๅณใ ใใ่ใ ใใใชใใชใใฐใใใจใๆใฃใฆใใใ ใป Well, I've got a photo shoot scheduled and I'm trying to adjust... and I'm anxious and frustrated with my knee that's not getting better even though I'm not going to the gym and resting ๐ต. ๐ซ๐ต๐ซ ๐ถ๐ซ๏ธ๐ซฅ๐ซ๐ถ ๐ซ๏ธ๐คฏ๐ญ I'm really mad at my body. It doesn't get better when I assume it doesn't hurt, it doesn't change when I rest, it hurts and I have no range of motion. I don't know if I've ever been this angry at my body before. I honestly also wish it would go away because it's such a brazen knee that I can't use it but take it for granted.
ใใใฎใใณใใใใๅ็ฃใๆๅ็ฃใจใใฆไฝฟใใใใฎใซ้ ใใใใโฆ๐ข ใป It's been a while since I worked with my engine running, but I was so focused that I didn't have time to stop at the bakery where I usually stop ๐ข
After eating the bread there, I came back to Kanto and ate some bread but it was so not good. I'm so angry that they are making us buy this stuff ๐ฌw
I would love to buy some bread there as a souvenir or a gift but it's too far away ๐ข
ใจใชใใจใ่ชๅใไฝใ้ธๆใใใจใใฆใ็ตๆใๅคใใใใจใใชใใฎใ ใ ใป It was the day of the supermoon when the moon was at its largest just a few minutes ago ๐
No wonder I've been so distracted lately. My back and knees have been acting up, and my whole body has been edematous and strange, even though I have no idea what it is ๐ฉ
It's strange how the human body is mostly made up of water and yet the gravitational pull can change our condition so much.
I feel like I'm being kept alive in a box even though I think I'm living and moving freely ๐
If you think this way, you are probably right.
Then, no matter what I choose to do, the outcome will never change.
ใใใใใใงๆฐๆใกใฏ่ ใใใใผ๏ผ ๅบๆฅใใใจใใใฆใใใผใใชไบใฏใใฃใใใใใชใใจใใๅใใฆใฎๆๆฆใ ใขใคใขใคใใฆใฆใใใใใใชใใ ใป It's been a week since my injured knee became swollen and painful as a result of hard training...
I've stopped cardio and leg workouts at the gym, but I thought walking would do less damage, so I did it yesterday. About halfway through when I thought it was hurting, my friend asked me, "You're a little limp, does it hurt?" He asked me ๐ฑ
I didn't think I was supposed to walk like that and was shocked ๐คฏ
When I woke up this morning, sure enough, it was swollen and it hurt to go to the bathroom from bed and I couldn't bend and stretch it very smoothly anymore ๐ข
I was going to see a doctor but was told that the hospital is closed for outpatient services due to corona ๐ต๐ซ
But I'm not feeling rotten here! This is the first time I'm trying to do what I can and not do the hard stuff well. I can't be bothered.
ๅคงๅใชไบบใปใฉๆฐใใคใใฃใฆ่ชๅใฎ่ใใไผใใไบใฏใใชใใ ็ธๆใๅนธใใชๆฐๆใกใซใชใใใฐใ็งใๅนธใใ ใใใ่ชๅใๅๆใซๆฐใใคใใฃใ็ใซใๅ้ใใใใใใๅใใฃใฆใใใใฆใใชใใฆ ใใจใง่ฝใก่พผใใ ใๆฒใใใชใฃใใใใใ ใจใใใใใใใฃใฆใใใใใจใใใฎใ้้ใใใใใใชใใ ใป I am both thankful and hard-pressed to have things to do until this late.
Well, I think it's not good to compare myself with others, but I wish I could be someone who is just as busy as the people I care about during their difficult times. I secretly hope that I can be someone who is just as busy as they are and can understand their feelings as much as I can.
The real me, the one I rarely show to others, is a soft-spoken, honest, but introverted person who is not very good at being sweet.
I am not so careful to express my thoughts to the people I care about. If they are happy, I am happy. However, if I am misunderstood or not understood because of my own selfish care, I may feel depressed or sad later on. I feel depressed or sad later. Or perhaps it is a mistake to try to make them understand.
ๆฅ็ๅคใฎๅบ็ชใใชw ใป Yesterday was a convention ๐
There were a lot of teams and a lot of free time ๐ซ It's better to create a rhythm and play at a good tempo so you can keep your concentration. So yesterday was a ridiculously tiring day ๐ซ
I was inwardly impatient because I tore the space between my fingers on a contact play and it wouldn't stop ใใชใผใใฃใณใฐ profusely ๐ฉธ I felt something touch my leg and it itched, so I looked and found that the ใใฉใใ dripping from my hand had hit it and made a hell of a mess (๏ฝฐ๏ฝฐ;)
I thought this is the one that needs stitches... but the adrenaline was pumping and the pain wasn't that bad, so I taped it up and kept going.
The hospital and station were not close and it was a holiday, so I washed my hands, fixed it, and went home.
I ate a lot of food to distract myself from the pain, but that didn't help me sleep at night because I wasn't feeling well ๐
If you think about it, animals don't eat anything and stay still to avoid using extra energy when they are injured... ๐๐๐ I thought it was better to nourish them but I guess I did the opposite ๐
I was thinking I should go for stitches. After another day, it looks like it's no longer a fresh wound. I guess I won't be able to get stitches now, so I'm going to keep an eye on it ๐ฉน
